Hell disguised as love

A hole in my chest, a tear in my soul. An emptyness which can't be fixed with temporary pleasure. Addiction is like the sun; a beautiful star. Look in it for too long, and you'll be blinded. The more you blind yourself, the more you want to see. So you search for light, for so called "freedom" But the sun is ruthless. It gives you the light you yearn, while consuming you in the process. You'll get trapped, its like a paradox. No escape, no solution, theres nothing you can do. A jail, made by yourself. A hell, disguised as love. If you once ate real freedom with a spoon, you'll miss that freedom. You'll be so desperate to eat it with a knife. It'll cut your mouth, it will make you suffocate in your own blood. Addiction solves a problem it creates. Its an endless loop of despair. So don't look at the sun, look at yourself. Because thats where real freedom lies. Not a freedom that blinds, but a freedom that liberates.